On being a mom

What can I say, it is not easy being a mom!

I think most people wont refute that. I've been pondering on this a lot lately. Many people think "oh ya, it's hard because you have to sacrifice so much, because you lose sleep, you lose freedom, you lose money" which are all true. But I would argue, that those are the easy parts of being a mom. For me, the hardest part, is the responsibility. The weight of having a human being completely dependent on you for their every need, but also for teaching them about the world.

I find myself re-evaluating my own beliefs constantly now that I'm a parent. I never used to do that. I used to skate through life, sticking to the path that other people had already beaten down for me, sticking to those ideals and beliefs. Rarely did I find myself questioning my religion, my ideals, or any of the things I was taught growing up, until after I had my own child.

Now I question everything. I question "do I really believe this, do I really think this, is it really right?" because I know I will be teaching my own daughter, based on my beliefs.

That's a lot of responsibility, lets just hope I only minimally screw up!
How am I supposed to find balance in this? It is absolutely a lot of pressure to be a parent.